So.....it's been a while.... :-)

So many things are changing.... I am in a new position, a project
manager....I know right!? Who knew....from nursing to a project lead for the
government. I like my job, I like what its about, what I am working towards, but
there are days I really miss my lil patients. SO far so good....We have a
new puppy, Sadie, she is special. A golden retriever/lab mix....the boys LOVE
her. I just started school again....AGAIN!!!! What the FUCK am I thinking???
Well....I have no freaking clue...I think I'm thinking "Show me the money!!!"
lol. We shall see....Hoping to be on here more, I spend so much time on
facebook, some times you just need an outlet, maybe this will be mine?
Dunno....we'll see.
I also need a way to vent about the weight loss journey that I have been on for over a year now....its the non loss weight loss program! lol. Seriously I need to figure some shit out....but how do you balance it all, how do you have a life, see your kids, work AND stay in shape?? If someone out there knows the freakin secret....PLEASE SHARE!!!

Happy Birthday Momma!

Most of you know, I'm a momma's girl! Always have been and always will be, my mom is my very best friend and one of my favorite people in the world. Her 60th birthday was last week, so my brother and I decided to be coniving and throw her a big party....a surprise one at that! She is always planning things and doing things for others, so we thought it was about time we did something for her........SHE HAD NO CLUE, it all went perfectly fabulously wonderful!!!



She had NO idea! She thought she was coming to karate....we didn't even tell the boys until that morning.....for obvious reasons!



We also had sort of a "Life in pictures" book made for her. She L-O-V-E-D it!

Mom has been there for evey one of my big moments, she was there and cut the cord on eahc of the boys....even the lil shocker Corbin, below.. :-)

I am so happy that I was able to give her an inkling of how much she is loved and appreciated!

More photos.....

So......my neighbor had her baby. She is adoreable and a wonderful subject to photograph....


I love the footsies!



Big sister Payte had to get in on the action :-)

Again with the feet....a special one for daddy....

Sooooo bright eyed :-)

Sweet naked baby.....gotta love it!

So I have decided.....drum roll please.....

So, I LOVE photography. I love being able to catch moments and memories that will last forever. So.......I have decided to make it a hobby and maybe even a side job! So, in the off chance that I could EVER be successful.....I am going to call my photography business/hobby "Memories by Marissa".....now just have to come up with a logo! :-)

My friends little man, the day after he was born.....I love baby tootsies!

Payte was having a good time enjoying a summer evening....

Big sissy wanted to get in on the action...

So sweet!

My journey into Photography....

Baby Em's Room all ready for her arrival!


I promised her I wouldn't post any with her face.....but she is so beautiful in this pic...I HAD too!



Pink!




One of my faves!





I really like this one too!

Whew...a lil update!

So....I made it through 3 days of the VLCD of the HCG plan. I will say that I did lose 6 lbs in 3days, which IS impressive, however, I started having chest pains and palpitations....so needless to say my cardiologist had a fit and ordered me to stop ASAP. So its back to the Weight watchers, I haven't gained back any of the 6 I have lost, but I was so hoping for that magic fix! Anyway, I have found something that interests me now, fun stuff, PHOTOGRAPHY! I have a few pics that I have worked on here and there, and a actual maternity belly session that turned out great! I am looking forward to doing more babies, families and maybe a wedding or two to get some more practice in...and hey, who knows I might have a nice little enjoyable side job! Who knows!?

Day 1 of the VLCD on HCG Diet.....

SO today was my first VLCD day. I would just like to confirm the fact that the people that have posted on various sites that there is no hunger involved and that it is easy peasy......ARE FULL OF SHIT! OMG, I am so hungry. I think the biggest problem is habit, kind of like when I quit smoking, it was kicking the habit part that made it so hard, not only the physical part. Same with this diet. ITS SO HARD! Especially when you have kids who eat all the time and I am a snacker....always have been, especially a LATE night snacker. Hence the weighty issue I have got going on :-) So, I keep trying to tell myself, that just like quitting smoking, detoxing my body and learning to eat right again is going to be really tough, but will get easier. Because right now, all i really want is to gorge myself on junk food, or pasta, or shit that I know I can't have, only because I can't have them. SO.....now that I have ranted, I would just like to say, I am not giving up over a little hunger....however, I also want to be "real" and say.....this process SUCKS ASS! So we shall see in a few days what the scale says and if feeling this way is worth it.....

ON to day 2.......